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Have You Done a
Huge Mistake Breaking UP?
Read Ashley's story
"We had talked twice
within that time but he was the one that called. the 2nd call consisted of him
telling me he missed me and he felt like he turned his back on me and he had
been treating me horribly in the end... all the things I had been waiting to
hear pretty much. that call happened Friday. On Sunday, I broke NC and called
him.
The conversation was going great. I asked if we could exchange stuff before I
moved an hour away and we were laughing and talking about this game we both
loved to play. Then it came. My heart took over my freaking brain and I said, "I
have to ask you something." Famous last words, really...
So I asked him if he still loved me. He said I couldn't ask him that question.
We talked some more and I eventually said something about 'I know you don't love
me anymore blah blah blah' and his response was 'I never said I didn't love you
anymore blah blah blah (blah blah is I don't remember what we said lol ) We
ended up hanging up because I asked him a question about that 2nd call he had
made and he said we aren't talking about this.
So then I call him back... yeah. The WHOLE time this is going on, I know it's
not the right thing to do. I couldn't stop myself though.
So he picked up when
I called back and the first question out of my mouth was 'Are we over forever?'
He something something like I don't know if we are, I can't control that. So I
asked him if we were over for the short term and he said yes. I asked him if he
regretted it and he said yes. I asked him if he realized what he had walked away
from and he said yes. there was some laughing and talking and then we hung up.
Now also during the 2nd phone call he asked me about the dance lessons I had
taken with a guy. I really hadn't actually taken any. At the time I was trying
to make him jealous (yes, I know it wasn't the right move) but I did end up
starting lessons a week or so ago. He asked me who this guy was, how old he was,
and came right out and asked me if I had sex with him.
I know I should be trying to move on. My brain is screaming this at me but my
poor heart is still trying to find the hope in the whole situation. I felt
pretty okay the day after this conversation. Numb is a word I suppose. I just..
ugh. I want him back still, yes. I miss him, I miss the relationship and I know
I can move on, I know I can get over him.... I just love him. I'm still in love
with him.
I called my beset friend's mom crying after the phone call because I guess at
that moment I could accept it was over forever and she was very supportive. She
said he didn't say yes to the forever question when he could have and he
answered yes to all the other questions. He said he never said he wasn't in love
with me and admitted that he had had weak moments during this..... I'm at that
point where I want someone to tell me what to do and I know no one can."
Here Is What I Told
Her...
Here is one thing I
struggled with a lot at the beginning of my break up. The thought that its over
forever and more so, the thought that I may never speak to her again.
Those are bad. They prevent you from being able to move forward because it keeps
you stuck in the past. I struggled with it a lot until I came to the realization
that even though its over, and yes possibly forever, it doesn't necessarily mean
forever, and it doesn't mean she has to be out of my life forever either. You
have to remember, you don't know the future. You may end up with him, you may
end up finding someone WAY better that makes you WAY happier. And when you come
to realize that, it gives you power back. It gives you the power to start living
life the way you want to live it, and start living it for today, and not for the
past. Then when you start living for today, you can build a future on that. I
know you want that future to be with him, but once you start shaping your own
life, you will realize that you don't need him and that you can make your life
whatever you want.
You didn't make a huge mistake though... its your healing process and you got to
do it the way you feel you need to do it, and sometimes that healing process
means stumbling and falling and some set backs. I had them, we all did, but you
do what you have to do until you are really ready to move forward. And you will
be ready to truly move forward, just be patient with yourself and don't be too
hard on yourself for anything you think or do, just try to make the best
decisions you can with the facts you have.
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